I was already halfway up my mother\u2019s walkway when I realized I hadn\u2019t practiced my smile.
After thirty-six years, you\u2019d think it would come naturally\u2014the polite, harmless curve of the lips that says I\u2019m fine even when you\u2019re not. The kind that looks good enough in photos, even if it never reaches your eyes.The porch light buzzed above the door, drawing in moths that kept throwing themselves against the glass, desperate to get inside. I understood that feeling more than I wanted to admit. Laughter spilled out every time the door opened\u2014warm, loud, and easy.My mom\u2019s voice rang clear, my brother Mike\u2019s deeper laugh underneath, and the chaotic noise of teenagers\u2014Tyler and his friends. I paused at the last step and tightened my grip on the gift bag in my hand. Inside was a small velvet box\u2014a necklace I had picked weeks ago. A delicate gold lily. Her favorite. I had spent too much time choosing it, imagining her reaction, imagining her smiling and saying, \u201cYou always know exactly what I like.\u201d I knew better, but hope doesn\u2019t disappear just because it\u2019s foolish. I forced a smile and knocked.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The door flew open. Tyler stood there, tall and smug, already carrying himself like the world owed him something.\u201cOh. You came.\u201d\u201cYes. Your grandmother invited me.\u201d\u201cJust throw your stuff somewhere.\u201dI stepped inside. The house was crowded, music thumping, voices overlapping, glasses clinking. The air smelled like sugar, fried food, and expensive cologne. For a moment, no one noticed me. It always happened like that\u2014as if I needed time to come into focus. My mom sat at the head of the table, smiling at Tyler like he had hung the stars, proudly telling someone about how gifted he was. I cleared my throat and stepped forward.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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