I miscarried four times before that night, each loss carving silence deeper into my body. When I finally gave birth, I heard him cry—sharp, alive, real—and then it stopped. He survived only fifteen minutes, just long enough for me to believe the universe had finally forgiven me. My husband stood stiff at the foot of the bed, his face hollow. Instead of holding me, he said, “You are bad luck,” as if grief needed a culprit. He walked out, leaving behind a woman stitched together and shattered. In the maternity ward, surrounded by balloons and joy that felt cruel, a stranger sat beside me. She had just delivered a healthy baby boy. Without asking questions, she placed him in my arms and let me cry into his blanket. For a moment, I remembered how warmth felt. Then she took her son back, smiled sadly, and disappeared into life.
Years later, I froze when I found out the truth. I was volunteering at a community center when a young man approached me—polite, kind, familiar in a way I couldn’t name. He said his mother used to tell him about a woman who held him once, a woman who taught her that compassion could save a life, even if just for a moment. He showed me an old photo she had kept: me, hollow-eyed, holding him like hope itself. In that instant, I understood something my husband never did—loss does not make you cursed. Love, even borrowed love, leaves echoes. And sometimes the child you lose becomes the reason another one grows strong enough to find you again.