At nineteen, I was expecting a child. My father stared straight through me and said, “You made your bed. Lie in it.” Then the door slammed. November air cut my lungs; my breath floated like scraps of white paper. I had a duffel, a coat that wouldn’t close, and a small life turning inside me. Through the kitchen window, my mother wept but did not come. My brother folded his arms and smirked like he’d won something.
I stepped off that porch and didn’t look back. In our Midwestern town, image was everything. My father was a church deacon with a handshake that felt like a lecture. He wore Sunday clothes like armor and quoted verses like laws. But when trouble touched our house, his rules turned into weapons. I learned fast how empty a polished sentence can be when it’s used to push someone out.Survival meant double shifts. I cleaned offices at night and bussed tables by day. I rented a peeling studio where the sink dripped into a pan and the heater cried more than it worked. I slept beneath thrift quilts and used my own body heat to keep my baby warm. Every flutter in my belly felt like a vow. This wasn’t just my life anymore. It was ours.