My son had barely been back at kindergarten a week when he climbed into the car and said, “Mom, Ethan came to see me.” Ethan had been dead for six months. Then Noah took my hand at the cemetery, stared at his brother’s grave, and whispered, “But Mom… he isn’t there.”My oldest son died six months before Noah told me he’d come back.It was a Tuesday at kindergarten pickup. Parents stood by the gate with coffee cups and phone screens. I stood apart, keys clenched, watching the door like it might swallow my childNoah ran out grinning.”Mom!” he yelled, slamming into my legs. “Ethan came to see me!”he air left my chest. I made my face behave.”Oh, honey,” I said, smoothing his hair. “You missed him today?”

“No.” Noah frowned. “He was here. At school.”I held him by the shoulders. “What did he say?”Noah’s grin returned. “He said you should stop crying.”My throat tightened so fast it hurt. I nodded like it was normal and buckled him into the car.On the drive home, he hummed and kicked his heels. I stared at the road and saw another one. Two lanes, a yellow line, a truck drifting.Ethan had been eight. Mark had been driving him to soccer practice. A truck crossed into them.Mark lived. Ethan didn’t.I never identified the body. The doctor told me, “You’re fragile right now.” Like grief had disqualified me from being his mother for one last moment.