When my sister announced her pregnancy months after my miscarriage, I thought the worst pain was behind me. I was wrong. At her gender reveal party, I discovered a betrayal so deep it shattered everything I thought I knew about the people I loved most.My name is Oakley, and six months ago, I lost my baby at 16 weeks.They don’t tell you what this kind of grief feels like. How it hollows you out from the inside, leaving you walking around like a shell of a person. How every pregnant woman you see on the street feels like a personal attack. And how your body betrays you by still looking a little pregnant even though there’s nothing there anymore.
My husband, Mason, was supposed to be my rock through it all. For the first week, he was. He held me while I cried. He made me tea I didn’t drink. God, he said all the right things about how we’d try again and how we’d get through this together.Then, slowly, he started pulling away.I’ve got a business trip to Greenfield,” he said once, throwing clothes into a suitcase.”Another one? You just got back two days ago.””It’s the Henderson account, babe. You know how important this is.” did know. Or at least, I thought I did. Mason worked in commercial real estate, and the Henderson account was supposedly his golden ticket to partnership. So I smiled and kissed him goodbye and spent another three nights alone in our bed, staring at the ceiling, wondering why grief felt so much heavier when you carried it by yourself.By the time two months had passed, Mason was barely home. When he was there, he was distant and distracted. He’d look at his phone and smile at something, then catch me watching, and the smile would disappear.