When I found my brightest student curled up in a freezing parking garage that November night, my heart broke into a thousand pieces. But when he told me why he was there, I knew there was only one thing I could do.I’m 53 years old, and I’ve been teaching high school physics in Ohio for over 20 years. My life has been filled with other people’s children. I’ve watched thousands of students walk through my classroom doors, taught them about gravity and momentum, and cheered when they finally understood why objects fall at the same rate regardless of their weight.Each “lightbulb moment” has been my fuel, the thing that reminds me why I keep coming back to that classroom year after year.
But I never had children of my own. That empty space in my life has always been the quiet echo behind my proudest days, the shadow that lingered even when everything else looked fine on the surface.My marriage ended 12 years ago, partly because we couldn’t have kids and partly because my ex-husband couldn’t handle the disappointment that came with each failed attempt. Those doctor visits, those hopeful test results that always turned negative… they chipped away at us until there was nothing left.After the divorce, it was just me, my lesson plans, and the echo of my footsteps in an empty house that felt too big for one person.I thought that was my story. A dedicated teacher who poured all her maternal instincts into her students, then went home to microwave dinners and grade papers in silence. I’d made peace with it, or at least I thought I had. I convinced myself that loving my students like they were my own was enough, even when the loneliness crept in late at night.
