I thought I was losing my mind. My husband of nine years had started acting like a stranger wearing his own skin. And the night I pulled back the covers and saw what was really underneath, nothing in the world could’ve prepared me for what came next.The moment I realized something was wrong with my husband wasn’t dramatic at all.There was no slammed door, no lipstick on a collar, and no late-night call that went silent the second I walked into the room.It was a Monday morning, and Lloyd poured two spoonfuls of sugar into his coffee.
That’s it. That was the thing that cracked me open.My husband had been drinking his coffee black since before I even met him. He used to joke that adding sugar was a personality flaw, half-seriously and half not.So when he stirred that spoon around with that easy little smile, like it was nothing, I just stood there by the refrigerator holding a carton of orange juice and stared at him.”Lloyd? Since when do you take sugar?” I asked.Just craving something sweet,” he said, and shrugged like the question bored him.I should’ve let it go. But something about that shrug stayed with me the rest of the day.By Wednesday, he was watching American football. Lloyd was a baseball guy and had been his entire life. He’d sit in three hours of rain at the stadium than voluntarily turn on an NFL game.But there he was, parked on the couch with a bag of chips, yelling at the screen like he’d been doing it since birth.