My first love, a Marine, made a promise under a weeping willow the morning he shipped out. He never came home. For 30 years, I kept his uniform in a cedar chest and told myself he wasn’t gone. I was right, just not in the way I believed… and not until I went back to that tree.Every year on February 22nd, I did the same thing before I went anywhere.But that day felt different. I couldn’t explain it. It was just a quiet, persistent sense that something was waiting for me.I opened the cedar chest at the foot of my bed and took out Elias’s old uniform. I just sat on the edge of the bed and held it against my chest, the way you hold something that is all you have left of a person.Thirty years had passed, and it still smelled faintly of him.
I know that’s not possible.Fabric doesn’t hold a person’s scent for three decades.But something in me always found it there, and I stopped arguing with that part of myself a long time ago.I sat there that morning with my beloved’s uniform pressed to my chest and cried. I did that every year.Then I folded it back carefully, the way the Marines had taught him, and I put it away.I pulled on my coat, picked up my keys, and drove to the only place I’ve ever gone to feel close to Elias.We found the willow tree when we were 17 and madly in love.It sat at the bend in the river, its branches trailing so low they touched the water when the current was high. We stumbled across it one afternoon in late September, and when we stepped under those branches, it felt like stepping into a room that had been waiting for us.