If she needed a permission slip signed or a snack after school, she’d ask her dad to ask me. If I tried to help directly, she’d stiffen, like my voice itself was something sharp. Her mother had died when she was five—sudden, cruel, the kind of loss that leaves a permanent echo. I was the woman who arrived afterward, when the worst had already carved its place in the house.
I learned quickly how invisible I was supposed to be. I cooked meals she ate without comment. I washed clothes she never thanked me for. At night, I’d hear her door close softly, a careful boundary.Then one afternoon, her school called.They said she’d had a panic attack during a lesson about family trees. Kids were asked to draw branches, names, connections. She froze, started shaking, couldn’t breathe.