When I brought my newborn to the ER in the middle of the night, I was exhausted and scared. I didn’t expect the man sitting across from me to make it worse or for a doctor to change everything.My name’s Martha, and I’ve never felt this tired in my life.Back in college, I used to joke that I could survive on iced coffee and bad decisions. Now it’s just a lukewarm formula and whatever’s left in the vending machine at 3 a.m.That’s where life has me these days, running on instinct, caffeine, and panic. All for a little girl I barely know, but already love more than I’ve loved anything.
Her name is Olivia. She’s three weeks old. And tonight, she wouldn’t stop crying.We were in the ER waiting room, just the two of us. I was slouched in a hard plastic chair, still wearing the stained pajama pants I’d given birth in — not that I cared how I looked.One arm cradled Olivia against my chest, the other tried to steady her bottle as she screamed.Her tiny fists balled up near her face, legs kicking, voice hoarse from hours of crying. The fever had come on suddenly. Her skin felt like fire. That wasn’t normal.”Shh, baby, Mommy’s here,” I whispered, rocking her gently. My voice was cracked, my throat dry, but I kept whispering it anyway.She didn’t stop.
