Last Thursday started like every other awful, quiet night I’ve had since my family fell apart. By midnight, I was scrubbing a clean counter just to avoid thinking too much—right up until three soft knocks on my front door turned my whole world inside out.It was Thursday night. Late. The kind of late when nothing good happens. I was wiping the same spot on the counter for the third time, just to fill the silence, when I heard it.Three soft knocks.A pause.Then a tiny, trembling voice I hadn’t heard in two years.”Mom… it’s me.”The dish towel slipped from my hand.
For a second, the words didn’t make sense. I tried to make them make sense, but they were devoid of meaning. Then, my whole body went cold.
Because that voice belonged to one person, and there was no way I could be hearing it now.It sounded like my son.My son, who died at five years old. My son, whose tiny casket I’d kissed before they lowered it into the ground. My son, I’d begged and screamed and prayed for every night since.
Gone. For two years.”Mom? Can you open?”My throat closed. I couldn’t move. Grief had tricked me before—phantom footsteps, the flash of blonde hair at the grocery store, a laugh that wasn’t his.But this voice wasn’t a memory turned into something I see out of the corner of my eye. It was sharp, and clear, and alive.